Sometimes I think I should become a Mother couple years earlier.
Maybe I would have more patience than I have now. And to be honest my son is an angel but from time to time he has his worst days. Especially when I have really hard time e.g a massive headache. It happened to me last week. I think I can even say it was one of the worst days of my parenting career.
When everything means ‘NO’
I was really upset that he doesn’t want to take a nap during a day. I took him to bed and he was acting like a little crazy animal. When I wanted to take him downstairs to his playing area he was crying. So he didn’t want to sleep and…play. What did he want to do? Only God knows. I hate those moments when everything is ‘NO’. He is so tired that he doesn’t know what he wants but definitely, he will be not sleeping.
That day I needed his nap because I wanted to sleep as well. I don’t remember when I had such a massive headache. I didn’t know what’s going on and if I will able to handle all day with that little boy. I lost my temper when he (accidentally?) hit my head.
I was thinking why the f&$@ he is doing to me? Why is he such a bad boy? What bad things I did in my life that I live now in such a hell? So, I left him in his bed. I closed the doors and went to my room. He was crying so bad. It was almost a hysterical crying. I couldn’t stand it. I calmed down myself a little bit and came back to my little boy. I took him out the bed and I said ‘I’m sorry it’s not your fault that Mommy has a bad day’. I hugged him and he looked at me smiled and he gave me the sweetest kiss ever. How can I keep losing my temper?
Not his fault
I was upset…again. This time not because of my son but because of me. How could I say he is a bad boy and I live in a hell? He is the sweetest boy ever. Immediately, he forgives me my anger and he looked like he didn’t bother about my behaviour. He still loves me, smiling at me and gives me kisses. It’s everything that I always wanted even if we have a rough time. Nobody said that being Mom is a piece of cake.