My baby is one in a couple of days and it just feels so unrealistically. I can’t stop thinking if I could do something better? If my baby is happy? If he feels that I love him more than anything?

First time when I hold my son in my arms I knew that I will do everything what possible to make him happy, healthy and loved. It’s like Mommy mission:) On our first day I’ve knew I will miss that first ‘skin contact’, his first smile, touch, breath. It’s so true that you will never get this time again. And sometimes it makes me quite sad. Did I cherish all those moments enough? Did I miss something? It’s only one thing that all parents can be sure that it will all be over in a flash. You will not get back all milestones, happy moments, your baby’s first times and etc. One day you will wake up and wonder where the time has gone.

When your baby is turning one you have thousands thoughts in your head. Basically it should be one of the happiest moment in our life. But my baby’s first year has gone by so quickly, it seems almost cruel. I still can’t believe that is almost a year since we brought him home. And now? He is walking so fast that sometimes I can’t catch him. He is understanding a lot. I can’t believe kids can be so smart. He is trying to eat by himself. He loves walks which is unbelievable because he hated it as an infant.

He taught me a lot. I didn’t know that I can be so patient. Or that I can love someone so much. I’m organized and surprisingly I like to planning everything. I realized that sleep is for weak people 😀 Really, I can sleep 4 hours and be fresh as a daisy. I know how to say ‘enough’ and don’t care about mess. I’m not crying if I don’t have time to clean a house or do a laundry. I will not make a diner? No problem. We can go to restaurant or buy a take away meal. I don’t need to be a perfect housewife as long I’m a good mother. I learnt to celebrate every day with my family. Especially when I’m off work. I can spend all day in a bed with my boys without feelings that I did nothing.

That first year of parenthood was full of joy and excitement. We had a lot of magic moments but also a shit ones. But now I can say that I appreciate some of these bad moments. They also taught me a lot. Nobody is perfect and I’m doing everything what I can. I follow my instincts. You can read some books or asking for advices but only you know your baby and what he needs.

I understood that my baby doesn’t need best swaddles, night lamps etc. He doesn’t need to wear the most expensive clothes or shoes. His room doesn’t need to be full of toys and perfect furniture. As long as his parents are close and love him from the moon and back he will be alright. I can’t wait for our another exciting year.

Remember if you feel that you want to give up soon your baby will be old enough to refuses giving you a kisses or hugs so appreciate your Mommy and baby time. Even if sometimes you have a hard moments.